so you and i
i can't deny
you are the one
i dream about at night

and only if
you could see
how much you mean to me
you might realize
all my love
but until then...

i sleep at night
dreaming of a sweet sweet lie
cause i know i'll never be
that guy, that you desire

but please know
i'll always be
that friend you know
who's there to help
who's there to listen..
when you're down

so don't deny
our friendship lies
in the arms of the disguised
and i don't know
how much more i can take...

take of this
you're a piece of shit
i taught you how
you can be so much more than this

but still you don't know
cause you lie...
is it me who you despise
i just don't know
but i will go

so for now i say goodbye
i hope you life a healthy life
and i will try
to go on with mine

so for now i say goodbye
remember the times that we laughed
and that we cried
but now it's over

so goodbye

so i moved out to vancouver for a change of scenery. and i got it. it's beautiful out here. i haven't needed a jacket since getting here in february and i love that feeling. my first month here was kinda rough commuting everywhere but now, i'm central and close to friends, downtown and all the essentials. also it only took me a couple weeks to find work which helped alot. but with the field i'm in it's up and down and i'm sitting on a downtime. but alas i live close to a good friend of mine and he's been helping my move here feel more welcomed. i've made some new friends already and have been just enjoying the city. i do miss people from back home but i guess that'd be expected when you move across the country. but all in all i'm enjoying my time here and look forward to living here for awhile.

and when people say it rains alot i don't quite get the bad side of it. sure it does but it's only a mist 90% of the time. feels refreshing. so what can you do. look at it from a possitive.

today i woke up feeling rough from all the beer i consumed last night so in my hung over state of mind and being rather bored i picked out 20 lines from some of my favorite songs that mean something to me. now to make it fun i challenge you to figure some out.

01. "I'd rather wake up beside you and breathe that ol' familiar smell"
02. "I'll stay up all night to hear about your day"
03. "Ignore and leave for me the headstone crumbling behind"
04. "And when the days are done I won't forget."
05. "Try not to, let the problems overwhelm you"
06. "In life and death you've always stole my heart"
07. "I've begged friends and family for forgiveness"
08. "These angels in my head are in between the shadow and the light."
09. "It's impossible to expand, when you never get a second chance."
10. "Don't say you're sorry cause sorry means something is wrong"
11. "Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words"
12. "A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere"
13. "I've got better things to do than waste these words on you"
14. "Maybe we could sleep it off with your best friend's pills"
15. "While you were here the fun was never ending"
16. "Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar"
17. "The loss you have, the love you lost, And all the hope that's in between."
18. "I'm unconsoled, I'm lonely. I am so much better than I used to be."
19. "She means everything to me and I'll do anything to keep from losing her"
20. "there’s no way to the heart better than awkwardly"

words aren't worth saying if saying them have no meaning.
feelings aren't worth feeling if feeling them always hurt.
tears aren't worth shedding if there is no emotion left.
but if there's one thing i have learned, it's that...
life isn't worth living if you're not living the life.